Today was a good day to get lost. It was one of the first warm days we’ve had after this never ending winter. At 5:30pm I flew out of work, ran home to change me clothes, and drove to the park to go for a walk. It was awesome. I took the wooded path which was basically empty because there were still parts of it that were covered in snow.
I had a lot on my mind and I was enjoying the solitude. After a 30 min walk, I looked up and saw the sign that read ‘END TRAIL’. I’ve walked this path a hundred time and every single time I have always turned around at that point and walked back to my car. Maybe it was the song on my iPhone. Maybe it was spring fever. Whatever it was, for the first time ever, I stepped past that ‘END TRAIL’ sign.
Beyond the sign was a main road but next to the main road was a side walk which looked pleasant enough to me so I started up the steep incline. There were houses and developments all around. A couple of times I swear I smelled someone grilling burgers…
The workout felt good. I was sweaty and the endorphins were coursing through my body. Then I had a thought. “I bet one of the streets leads down to where my car is parked!” So confidently I took a turn that seemed right, convinced in a few blocks I would happen upon my car. An hour in I was starting to get tired and I was starting to feel lost. (Also it had been 7 hours since I’d eaten!) And if I hadn’t had my iPhone on me I’m certain I would have been lost. The good news is, I found my car and I live to tell the tale. Although a beautiful walk, it was not what I had planned for.
Now I’m going to be flat honest with you for a moment. I’ve been feeling lost when it comes to my book, The Faintly Beating Heart. The last few weeks have been a myriad of doubts and obstacles. I don’t mind obstacles. I can handle obstacles! But today I made a very hard, but very important decision about this project. I’m pulling the reigns and slowing things down.
Relax! I am in no way stopping this train, just putting the breaks on. I’d been feeling far too pressured and rushed that I had started to lose focus on the work. I’d lost focus on the writing and my time with my characters and worlds. And if I’m sure of one thing it’s that I don’t want the craft to suffer. My books and this one especially since it’s my first, is my baby! And I don’t want to push her out into the world before she’s ready.
I had hoped (and prayed!) for a release date of May 1st for The Faintly Beating Heart. Right now I don’t feel comfortable putting a release date on it, except for ASAP! When this book releases, I want it to be the best that it can be. Not perfect, because perfect isn’t possible. But I do want it to be amazing not just so I can be proud of it, but so you can enjoy it more.
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P.S. My challenge to you is to go get a little lost too. Just make sure you have GPS with you, or at least a granola bar…
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